Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Death - The 2nd Greatest Blessing



The Greatest blessing is, of course, Jesus Christ, who brings us life.


Two trees are recorded in the Garden of Eden:  the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and the tree of life.  The tree of knowledge is identified in Genesis 2:17, and the tree of life is identified in Genesis 3:22.  In Genesis 2:16-17, God tells Adam that he can eat from any tree except the knowledge tree.  This means that Adam and Eve have free access to the tree of life.  Thus, no end of physical life.  I would propose that since an act of sin would bring spiritual separation from God (spiritual death), this tree of life, being a physical tree and fruit, would impart life to the physical aspect of man. 

The act of sin is committed in Genesis 3:6.  Disobedience to God brought spiritual separation.  Since man lives in a physical world, he displays that separation by hiding, due to his nakedness, in Genesis 3:7-8.  They also cover their nakedness with fig leaves, a symbol of man trying to cover up sin.  Plants are inadequate for atonement, since, according to Leviticus 17:11, “For the life of the flesh is in the blood: and I have given it to you upon the altar to make an atonement for your souls: for it is the blood that maketh an atonement for the soul.”  God himself performs the first blood sacrifice for them in Genesis 4:2, “…did the Lord God make coats of skins, and clothed them.”  But ultimately, Adam and Eve, and all of mankind, would have to suffer death to their physical bodies according to Genesis 3:19.

In Genesis 3:22, now that man is sinful, God does not want man eating from the tree of life, because that would result in man existing in a sinful state, physically, for eternity.  This proves the contention that in Genesis 2:17, God was speaking of a spiritual death.  Without the ability to die physically, God has no means of redeeming man.  I believe this is the issue with Satan and his demons.  Since they are spiritual beings, and they have sinned, there is no method of redemption.  We as physical beings are capable of losing the life in us through the shedding of our own blood, which satisfies God’s punishment to Adam in 3:19, but does nothing to atone for the spiritual separation from God.  Only Jesus’ death and resurrection can redeem us spiritually into God’s presence.  Jesus’ death was not our means of escape from physical death, we must suffer that ourselves.  Hebrews 9:27, “and as it is appointed unto man once to die, and after this, the judgment.”  We fulfill the first in our own death, and Christ takes our place in the second. 

So according to Genesis 3:22, if we do not die physically, we are damned to an eternity of separation from God.  Thus, physical death is a blessing from God.   Not the physical means, of course.  That may prove quite unpleasant.  And death is good only if death comes in God’s time, and by his plan.  To force our own death would demonstrate a lack of faith in God.  God is a spiritual being, and if we desire to return to him in spirit, we must first be free of our physical selves. 

But that is not enough.  Our physical selves being sinful is a result of our spiritual rebellion.  To be free from the physical alone still leaves us with a sinful spirit.  Returning to the spiritual with our sin intact leaves us in the state of eternal separation from God.  God is holy, and no sin can abide in His presence.  The only way to redeem our sinful spirit is to receive the forgiveness that Jesus gives.  The Word existed, and came to us in the physical form of Jesus (John 1:1-14).  Since he lived a sinless life, the only human to do so, his physical death was a sacrifice worthy to redeem all of mankind, see Leviticus 17:11 again.  The perfect sacrificial blood of Christ, giving his life, is a gift that can cleanse our spirits and return us to a spiritual relationship with the Father.  For without Christ, Revelation 20:15 says, “And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.” 

Another aspect to all this is when we submit ourselves to the blessing of Jesus' sacrifice, we have access to the Father in that perfect relationship now, even though we still live and suffer in the physical sinful state.  Its quite the conundrum, having to live in a sinful state and continually seeing ourselves as sinful, (and having others judge us as sinful, because we still are), yet having the spiritual access to Almighty God through the Holy Spirit.

All that to say, What a blessing it will be to die!  My spiritual death has been accomplished and spiritual life has been redeemed by Christ Jesus.  All I wait for now is to live out this life, hopefully in a manner worthy of the sacrifice Jesus gave.   Philippians 3:21, “For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” 



 - The following was written by yours truly on August 25, 2005, and has been sitting in my hard drive ever since.  Slightly edited for grammar and clarity.  Dedicated to my spiritual brother Justo, who will soon pass into glory.

Friday, April 6, 2018

The Final Goodbye


I've been spending time cleaning out my computer files.  Came across this little gem.  I wrote it as my official last company email to my coworkers, back in 2003.  

The Final Goodbye

The summer sun waits patiently 
For spring to run its course
The storms of spring unleash their wrath
As warm and cold divorce

The April showers wait ‘til May
May flowers wait ‘til June
The fields march and meadows dance
To nature’s silent tune

When winter snows, and blows, and it
Appears that spring is losing
You can be sure that spring will pick
A time of it’s own choosing

A flower reared in early March
Will not the summer see
But should it wait for spring to come
A flower it will be

The timing of our lives can much
Resemble that of seasons
The changes come and go and wait
With subtle rhymes and reasons

The change I choose to make today
Is made reluctantly
So many friends across the years
Are now like family

The time together we have spent
Some precious memories bring
And glancing back at all we’ve done
I wouldn’t change a thing
(Well, ok, maybe one or two small itty bitty things.)(What!?!)

But seasons change, and so must we
My season here is through
And so it is with heavy heart
I bid you all adieu.

Many Thanks,  Alan

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Relentless Father Time

I felt old today.

Last summer, I auditioned for, and scored, a part as an extra in the upcoming Stephen King mini-series "Castle Rock" on Hulu.  After its out, and if I make it in the final cut, I'll update with details.  So now I receive constant emails from the casting company about current projects.  This morning's email was for parts in a TV pilot, with filming tomorrow.  I have extra time, so I applied.  I needed a current picture, so my wife went outside with me and took a few.

Then I looked at the pictures.  Man.  Father Time is doing a number on me.  I've noticed this on other people.  You can see where they change.  One picture, they look like you know them.  The next picture, they look different.  Older.  That's how I felt when looking at the pictures.  If I were casting parts for a TV show, I would cast me as a college professor.  One who's been there a while.  The word "distinguished" came to mind.  Ouch. 

I don't want to be distinguished.  I don't want to be old.  I don't want gray hair.  I don't want wrinkles.  I don't want aches and pains.  I could really do without any of it. 

I'm not special.  Father Time has no contention with me personally.  He's just doing his thing.  I still hate him for it. 

I am special.  I have a Father in Heaven who loves me in a very personal way.  In fact, he created time, and that's probably the only justification I have in tolerating all this.  God's not going to stop time for me, or for you, either.  We all have to endure.  I could spin it where if I'm enduring old age, then I've made it to old age, blah blah blah.  Take that as you will.

No, I don't think I'm elderly yet.  There's plenty I can still do.  Lots to accomplish.  The new job has pressed a huge reset button for me, on many planes.  Physically, I'm getting a lot more sleep.  I can tell because my dreams are much more deep, more intense, more colorful.  Mentally, I'm invigorated in the process of learning the details of running a power plant, not just the weekend mentality of keeping it running until the full-timers come in on Monday.  Emotionally...  I de-stressed.  Amazingly, it only took about two hours of quiet with soft music in the background, and the stress was gone.  I have crossed a huge bridge in life, and now I stand on the other side, overwhelmed with excitement about the possibilities that lie ahead.

But I still look old.  Oh, I'll fight it.  Its gonna be a good summer.  Lots of exercise, time in the gym, time on the unicycle.  Lots of sunshine, fresh air, and good company.  We are joining a CSA this year, so lots of fresh, organic veggies.  My diet has changed drastically.  This revelation will make me smarter.  Work harder.  More aware.   I'll do what I can to stem the tide...  but...

The evidence is before me.  Three years into my fifth decade, and I can see the change.  Its there.  When I look in the mirror, I see the me I'm used to seeing.  When I see these pictures, well, its different. 

Sure, go ahead, say all the platitudes.  "Make the most of every day."  "Make sure to tell those you love that you love them."  "Cherish every day you wake up with breath in your lungs."  ""There are plenty of people in the world who would love to have your problems."  "At least you still have all your hair."  To quote a famous movie line, "Today is not that day."   Today, I'm just mad. 

So if you want inspirational blatherings, read my other blog posts.  I'll deal with it.  I'll be fine tomorrow.  I might be fine after eating a delicious dinner.  I'll walk it off.  I'll be fine, really.  I'm just relaying what's behind the mask.  I'm just relaying how you also feel, behind the mask.